Updated: Apr 15
Hey B.F.F.'s! When I decided to go on this journey, I promised myself that I would be transparent, and that is what I will endeavor to do.
This month our theme is Relationship Strong! Here at B.F.F., We know that a relationship usually includes a connection, association, or involvement with another person. So we will include our relationships with God, our family, our children, our friends, dating, and of course, ourselves. This week I chose to talk about self-love and how you must love yourself before you can try to be apart of any of these other relationships. How you see yourself is essential, and it often dictates how others see you. I realized for a long time that I didn’t see or know my worth, and I didn’t feel worthy of love. During this time, I thought I deserved love and was fully capable of giving it back, but deep down inside, I thought so little of myself. Inside I felt that all of the things I had were laughable at most. One night I begin to write down my thoughts and I wrote how I was feeling at the moment. I wrote down that I knew I wasn’t the prettiest of the bunch but that I had a heart of gold! I wrote that I’ve never had the things that most of you consider “pretty.” I’ve never had long, beautiful hair, and throughout my life, I’ve thought this isn’t fair. I then heard the Lord whisper that I’m beautiful in my own way. I have to embrace who I am and who He created me to be. At that moment, I realized that I am not what I sometimes think of myself or what the world says I am, but I am what my father says I am. I don’t need long hair to be beautiful, and once I embraced that, I was free. Free from all of that doubt because he said I am Loved! (John 3:16) I am his! (1 John 3:1) I am worthy ( Zephaniah 3:17), and I have a purpose. (Jeremiah 29:11). God continues to wrap his arms around me, and he lets me know that I’m beautiful every day. Hair didn’t define or make the beauty God sees in me!
I found myself accepting things that I probably wouldn’t have accepted from the opposite sex. I thought I was ready for a relationship when, in fact, I needed time to love myself, embrace myself, and be myself! Everyone around me was married, getting married, or in long term relationships. It was natural for me to want that too, but it just was not happening. I pondered on this thought: how can I be who God intended for me to be if I’m not honest with myself? I wanted that so badly, but it wasn’t time. At this moment, I had to face reality, and I had to be honest. The enemy tried to trick me, but I know who I am and whose I am. Christ continually keeps me and keeps me clothed in my right mind. I love myself, and I’ve embraced this time of singleness so that when it is time for a new relationship I will be ready!
My Current Season
1. What is good and exciting about my current season?
In my current season, I am at a place of learning to love myself for who I am. I am genuinely learning to fully walk in all that God has created me to be. That means learning how to take care of the gifts he’s placed inside of me. I’m excited about this season because God has me right where he wants me to be, and I am endeavoring to go to the next level in him.
2. What is hard about my current season?
The hardest part about this season is the unknown. Learning to have patience and wait on Gods timing
3. What is something I would like to change or need to change in my current season?
One thing that I need to work on is being faithful in committing time set away for God daily that he can commune with me. I need to get back connected in a church home.
4. Am I approaching any transitions? If so, how can I help prepare for them so that I am emotionally, physically, and spiritually healthy to walk through the transition?
I’m going through a transition in my life where I am going to the next level physically, mentally, and emotionally so I have to prepare for this by spending time with God and making sure that I hear his voice clearly.
Until next time with LOVE, GRACE & A HAPPY FACE